I try to think about the ways
you would step on my shadow
So I could run away
of what was our game

I try not to think of how
You looked at me
So deeply confused
or with accusation

I try to think of the happiness
in your eyes
when I came home
to keep you company

I try not to think of the grey
that infested your skin
to settle the statement
of a lesser heartbeat

I try to think of the sun
that made you brown
both out of happiness
of the warmth around us

I try not think of the last words
you said to me
before you lost your mind
I try not to think of the emptiness
you left behind

I try to think of the way
you used to live
before you died

The light is dark
just like my mind
Only my sobs echo
in a place I can’t define

And when your footsteps vanish
the pain starts to increase
Because I know you were there
But you left no evidence

So I might stay here
a little longer
just in case you came back
because you actually love me
and want me back

Dagen er mørk
finder ingen ro
disen kryber ind
lægger stemmerne på plads

Sidder alene
spejlet er min ven
forvrænget ved synet
af alle de raserianfald

Kuglepennen i min hånd
Blækket på gulvet
Ordene spejler sig
i disen der skrumper ind

Stemmerne kalder
på 3 forskellige sprog
min stemme ryster
mine kinder er våde
kan ikke give slip endnu

Valget er taget
Jeg har mine grunde
anderledes vej
længere skridt
Jeg bliver nødt til at give slip

Sidste udkald
Det er point of no return
siger farvel
siger vi ses
min afhængighed giver slip

I don’t want to feel the tears rising
as I hold my choking inside
To show you my vulnerable side
when you are watching

I don’t want to talk to make you feel better
To feel the energy drop by trying
to make only you happy
as I am losing all the time

I don’t want to feel happy
when I know it will end
and I feel the emptiness
of something I know
I never had

Kilder af blod springer
fra mine fingerspidser
jeg glider ned mellem
mine fire sorte vægge
som skygger fornuften

Tankerne kommer ud
som mennesker der ser ned på mig
de siger de ting jeg ikke vil høre
og påpeger de ting jeg ikke vil se

Ordene kommer ud som slanger
og de tager kvælertag på min hals og lemmer
de danner sig til kæder
en for sorgen
en for smerten
en for vreden
en for ensomheden
og en for angst
at jeg aldrig kan
overkomme migselv igen

In goes
the poison
out go
the cells
Like your breath
that still reminds me
you’re alive

In goes
the poison
out goes
the hair
Like your mind
that can’t cope how
things are

In goes
the smile
out go
the tears
by the thought
of losing you
forever

Once upon a time
it didn’t matter
how different we were

Once upon a time
we ran away
beyond our wildest fantasies

Once upon a time
we did not care
about the world at all

Once upon a time
you did not judge me
for I was not like you

Once upon a time
I could only grieve
that you have now replaced me

Once upon a time
we were so close
but now so very far

Once upon a time
we were just children
But today we became
the adults we feared
the most

I want to see the sky
See how blue, blue can be
See how clouds wander
and watch the birds fly
to places that are
beyond my wildest fantasies

I want to see the sun
Feel the heat on my skin
See how it marks me
with burns or freckles
See the light that so
easily can blind anyone

I want to see the moon
See how big it can get
even though it is so far away
See it’s many companions shining
in the dark and cold night that seems
so lonely and yet so peaceful

I want to see the sea
See waves curve and rumble
See how the wind masters
the power of movement
See the reflection of the sky
that determines your colors

I want to see the rain
How it can wash everything away
Smell the reborn air
that makes my heart swell up in happiness
See how drops give new life
in the soil beneath me

I want to see the snow
See how white, white can be
How it feels cold in my hands
while it melts slowly
To se something so simple
molded into your favorite piece of art

I want to see everything green
See how trees go from
naked to bright green dresses
See how flowers appear
with each their own color and smell
and see their seeds travel
many miles from here

I want to see you
See the wrinkles by your eyes when you laugh
See your crooked teeth when you smile
Smell your favorite shampoo from your hair
Feel your arms that consume me with love
I want to see everything that defines you

And all of these things
I will appreciate
Right until my last breath escapes
Until my heart draws its last beat
Until my eyes shut forever
to this wonderful world
that I will never forget