I try to think about the ways
you would step on my shadow
So I could run away
of what was our game

I try not to think of how
You looked at me
So deeply confused
or with accusation

I try to think of the happiness
in your eyes
when I came home
to keep you company

I try not to think of the grey
that infested your skin
to settle the statement
of a lesser heartbeat

I try to think of the sun
that made you brown
both out of happiness
of the warmth around us

I try not think of the last words
you said to me
before you lost your mind
I try not to think of the emptiness
you left behind

I try to think of the way
you used to live
before you died

The light is dark
just like my mind
Only my sobs echo
in a place I can’t define

And when your footsteps vanish
the pain starts to increase
Because I know you were there
But you left no evidence

So I might stay here
a little longer
just in case you came back
because you actually love me
and want me back

Kilder af blod springer
fra mine fingerspidser
jeg glider ned mellem
mine fire sorte vægge
som skygger fornuften

Tankerne kommer ud
som mennesker der ser ned på mig
de siger de ting jeg ikke vil høre
og påpeger de ting jeg ikke vil se

Ordene kommer ud som slanger
og de tager kvælertag på min hals og lemmer
de danner sig til kæder
en for sorgen
en for smerten
en for vreden
en for ensomheden
og en for angst
at jeg aldrig kan
overkomme migselv igen